The brightest among them have gone to predictably good places. One is now a Dr. in mathematics, working at Cambridge University. Then there’s the Harvard Law graduate (sheesh, we’ve only got Harvard Extension School graduates here), who’s now working in Cambridge, Massachusetts. Then another as a PhD student in Norway. Another working in Bay Area. The worst of them (except me) is probably some lawyer.
Am I just stupid? Or misguided?
Somehow I’m working at a place that will videotape you and ‘post it in public’ if you use your cell phone during OVERTIME work. Geez.
I’m not sure about this.
All I know is that I’m deeply dissatisfied. I know why I made my choices, but now I’m starting to question, Is it really just poor choices? Or is it, fundamentally, being stupid?–so that one cannot help but to make such poor choices?
On top of this, little problems with my body do not help at all.
Perhaps I really should just ‘try harder’, whatever that means. One of my best friends in adult life–as in, non-student adult life–is probably going to Oxford for a philosophy PhD. This shows that perhaps it’s all about being brainy after all. I’m just not that.
Very upsetting. Very upset. Seems like mediocrity will be stuck with me forever. An unmotivated, unintersting, boring life I will lead, it seems.
Not An Avocado Life 