I think I feel overwhelmed because I haven’t really properly sorted things out yet. Not since I came here.
I just realised that what I’m interested in doing are most likely not going to become my job. Once you realise this, it’s much easier to look for a job. You wouldn’t get confused by all the ‘options’ if you got this point. I suppose I used to think that I could do anything because I’m interested in so many things. But that seems to me to be the wrong path.
So, here is a list for things I’d like to complete, but not do as a job:
- Figure out what the Incompleteness Theorem is all about.
- Have a personal podcast channel. (in progress)
- Be more knowledgeable about logic in general
- Learn German
- Get a qualification in some cool stuff — could be job-related.
- On a related note: would be good to have my own studio/business one day.
- Learn Latin/know more about etymology
Well, turns out that I don’t have that many interests after all. I think I could start with logic. Then we’ll see what we could do.
As for the next job, I suppose these are some viable paths:
- Go for the pilot application. Hence write the TOEIC first.
- Complete your freaking IBTutor profile
- Get a teacher’s qualification from the UK– expensive and draining. Or from Taiwan — cheap but not necessarily useful. Then apply again next year for an IB position overseas, preferably Germany, Greece, the UK, or Japan.
- the problem with this option is that I have absolutely nothing for teaching. I don’t like dealing with kids and am not exactly a fan of paperwork. And my life just looks bleak as hell if I’m going to be a teacher for the rest of my life. I might just as well commit suicide or feign death.
- If you’re actually good, you may try to write something for the logic course on Brilliant.
- Go for actuary. Damn, but I never knew how to start.
Well, this is not actual progress. I think I’ve been toggling with these in my mind for some time but just didn’t take any action.
As I’ve thought, I don’t think I could formulate proper reasoning at this point, since I’m so drained by the school and the dilapidated town right now and am most certainly not 100% sane. I’m most certainly not going to make the best decision. But then again, when is one ever ready for a proper decision? I think I’ll need at least a two-month break. That’s not too much to ask for, is it?
Damn, sorting things out is hard. Really hard.
Now a thing about being a pilot: I think I have a pretty low chance to becoming one, for I already failed the test a few years back, and I doubt that my capabilities have improved–most likely have become worse, if anything. And after getting in, I suppose life could be settled; meaning that my main task will be to keep healthy and to be updated about the knowledge. The thing is, there’s always the risk of not staying healthy.
And another thing: I’ll have to live in Taiwan for the rest of my life. And I won’t be able to open any school or whatnot. But the pros are pretty clear: fewer working hours, to live practically in the sky, and enough fund to move elsewhere once retired. And to be kept out of all the mumble jumble of social life as much as possible in the future.
The thing about being a teacher: just not my thing, what can I say. Not to mention that you feel that life will be forever stale and still. Day in, day out, and you’ll not progress or meet interesting people.
Oh and that reminds me: I suppose the thing about studying philosophy is that you get to meet quite a few interesting individuals. That’a just the set up–you’re bound to meet them.
Aw, I’m just complicating things, am I not?
Damn.
Not An Avocado Life 